Will Young has opened up on the devastation he felt after needing to throw his twin brother Rupert out of his home just a week before his death.
Rupert died by suicide in July 2020 at the age of 41 after falling from Westminster Bridge. He had suffered with depression and addiction to alcohol and painkillers for a long time.
Speaking candidly in a new Channel 4 documentary which airs today (Monday, May 9) called Will Young : Losing My Twin Rupert, Will, now 43, told how his brother turned into a "monster" when he drank.
The singer also revealed the heartbreaking moment he realised he "couldn't save" his sibling.
The Pop Idol winner was his brother's carer in the years before his death and said: "My day would start. Either he was sick or he would have peed on the sofa, so I’d have to clear that up, then go get more beers and codeine because he was addicted to painkillers."
Just a week before Rupert's death, the singer had reported a his brother as a trespasser in order to remove him from his home.
Will added: "At the end, he would be drinking 24 hours a day. You’ve got this monster who’s not moving. So the only thing was to throw him out but also to be aware he might end up killing himself. I was OK with everything I’d done to try to help him."
It was the time following his brother's death when he admitted to feeling a "whole lot of grief" after realising he couldn't save him.
However, he now looks back and admits he is very grateful to have had the time he had with him.
Will went on to emotionally say "I did everything I could to not let him die."
The documentary marks the first time the Evergreen singer has opened up about his brother's struggles since his death and he says it's important for him to do so as other people will be experiencing the same issues.
Will describes how as kids the pair weren't of the same nature, but were "best friends".
And he went on to detail how he feels Rupert's downward spiral began during their school days, with his first instances of self harm being when he was 13.
He revealed that his brother's first suicide attempt came when they were 18 years old.
He also said he believes his brother's alcohol addiction got worse after Pop Idol as he would use Will's name to jump nightclub queues.
The documentary also sees Will and Rupert's parents look back at the duo's childhood.
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