Strictly Come Dancing star Matt Goss has revealed the heartbreaking reason he's glad he left the show in week three.
The Bros singer, 54, broke down into tears after discovering he lost his place on the show following a dance-off against actress Kym Marsh last month.
But now on reflection, Matt exclusively tells Mirror the heartbreaking reason he's happy he left before the Halloween special.
"I really think getting out just before Halloween was probably good," he said at a special 50th anniversary performance of Mike Oldfield’s Tubular Bells at the Royal Albert Hall this week.
"I'm a confident man, but aesthetically and just me, I'm not as confident as people think."
Matt explained that having Poland Syndrome makes him "feel like a weirdo" and so dressing up in costume for the Halloween show would have been difficult.
Poland Syndrome is a disorder that affects people's muscles and usually impacts one side of the body - in Matt's case he has a part of his major chest muscle missing.
"I have Poland Syndrome, so I only have one pec that was brought to the attention of a lot of people so I'm glad that the Poland Syndrome [was brought to people's attention]" he says.
"I remember sitting down and tears falling out of my eyes watching the Olympics it was given a name and it hadn't been given a name.
"A Poland Syndrome charity said they'd never had so much publicity and an 85-year-old man said he didn't know what it was called until he read the piece. Because people look at you and it's like, 'what's going on', you feel like a weirdo and now I feel like I am who I am."
Matt seems surprised that his smooth moves didn't get him further in the competition.
"I know that if you come and see me on stage you'll have a b****y good night," he quipped.
But he said he found it difficult to open up to the competition and show his emotional side.
"I think that you should all be allowed to reveal yourself at our own pace," he said.
Adding: "I felt ironically like I've got my licence and I was actually starting to come out of my shell.
"But the reception from the public has been nothing short of mind-blowing to me. There's so much love. There was 10s of 1000s of messages of, 'we love you' and 'don't change'."
Matt lost his mum Carol in 2014 after losing her battle with breast cancer and now considers his fans like family to him.
"I mean when you lose your mum and you don't have any family really in the UK, it's the British public who made me feel - as weird as this may sound - they made me feel very very safe," he said.
The 50th Anniversary Celebration double album of Mike Oldfield's Tubular Bells features the Royal Philharmonic Orchestra, the London Contemporary Voices Choir, vocalist Ella Shaw and Blessed, who also plays The Master of Ceremonies.
Recorded at Henry Wood Hall in London, the arrangements for the album feature new orchestration and choral elements to provide “new colouring and textures to the work”, while the basis of the original album is presented faithfully by session performers.
The album is out now on Cleopatra Records.
