Louise Thompson provided the health update in an extensive post on Instagram
(Picture: Louise Thompson/Instagram)Louise Thompson has revealed her fears that she has “brain damage” following her PTSD struggles as she shared her recovery progress with fans.
The Made in Chelsea star provided the health update in an extensive post on Instagram.
Thompson confessed that she “dreads life” as she spoke of how her mental health issues have nearly “destroyed her family” and is concerned for her fiancé Ryan Libbey, who is also suffering from PTSD.
The 32-year-old’s comments come after several months of difficult episodes batting the disorder, which developed after a complicated labour and delivery with her son Leo, who was born last November.
She wrote on Instagram: “Where am I at with my recovery?! MMmmmm. I’m at a weird stage now where I’m blocking everything out. Maybe I said that way back at the beginning? I can’t actually remember much because I’m still trying to protect myself from the pain. I don’t want to re-read.
“This condition feels very repetitive. Finally it DOES feel like everything happened a long time ago but it also feels like it happened to someone else and not me. I kind of feel like I’ve erased my entire past and started life as a totally new person. A sometimes sick person.
“People tell me how far I’ve come, but I can’t remember how far. I can remember a weird amount of things from my childhood…sensory things will remind me of the strangest memories from way back when I was 5-15, but then I’ve sort of erased everything between then and now.”
Thompson admitted she is “struggling to move on” as she continued: “To put it bluntly I’m struggling to move on with ‘normal’ life. Every day I feel physically very unwell and every other day I seem to have an hour long period (sometimes longer) where I feel messed up in my brain.
“I don’t know what it is, but it feels like brain damage or a mini stroke.
“Maybe it’s a weird processing experience. I can’t think properly or talk properly during those episodes. It sort of feels like I’m having a major allergic reaction to something in my brain. I go from feeling really low and agitated to then feeling a rush of something and then I get the worst cramping around my pelvis but then my brain levels out.
“I’ve been told that this isn’t a result of my mental health medication?!? Can anyone help with the physical side of things? I’ve tried eliminating certain things and tracking my lifestyle but I can’t figure out what it is. There doesn’t seem to be a pattern and it’s not to do with triggers.”
Thompson added a series of lengthy posts as she talked about wanting to learn how to “act normal” during her “brain breakdowns” so her son Leo wouldn’t see her “broken”.
She likened herself to having dementia as she described her system as “still so out of balance” and asked for “someone to fix me” as she wants return to her “normal” self again.
“My mind has been EVERYWHERE and now I just want someone to fix me,” she went on.
“I know that I want to go back to being normal Louise so why won’t my body and brain just let me. Just when I think I might be turning a corner I find myself feeling really ill. That puts me right back in a bad place. Then I question: Will I ever feel healthy again?”
She added: “Now when I feel good I spend all my time with my Leo because I want to take the pressure off of Ryan because he is really struggling with his own PTSD etc. (which he has FINALLY admitted to me).
“His has manifested in very different ways and he hasn’t started any treatment yet, but I hope when he starts it works a dream because I hate seeing him suffer.
