Terry Crews has revealed how a decades-long addiction to pornography almost destroyed his marriage.
The Brooklyn Nine-Nine and White Chicks star is a happy father-of-five with his wife Rebecca.
But it wasn't always plain sailing for the pair, with Terry admitting that his marriage was 'done' for a period after an incident in Vancouver, related to his addiction, left them on the ropes.
Growing up, Terry, 53, explained that troubling events in his childhood left him looking for an escape - which he found in porn.
He explained to Steven Bartlett on The Diary Of A CEO: "Drinking is a way of numbing your pain - for me it was pornography. Pornography numbed my pain. I've never been drunk or high but porn was something that took me out.
"I first discovered it at about nine or ten years old, I was at my uncle's house and he had a chest full of it. You never find it as an adult. I don't know anyone who only found porn as an adult. You always find it as a child.
"I didn't even know what sex was, but I knew when I opened a magazine, all my problems were gone. It was numb. Every problem would disappear. I had to have it."
Despite his success, there were days where he would watch porn for over 12 hours a day.
He said: "If I got a day off from a set and I could watch porn from 10am to 11pm at night. And I wouldn't stop. I couldn't stop. It was a splurge. I knew I had a problem, but when you tell yourself that you will stop, you just go right back.
"With porn, I would feel guilty - but with guilt comes shame, and shame says 'you are bad, this is who you are'. So you'd do a bunch of good things for a few days and you feel you need a reward. What's the reward? Porn. And the cycle stars all over again."
Terry had his addiction from when he was nine years old in 1977 all the way through to 2010, when things came to a head.
He told Steven : "I got married in 1989 to the most beautiful woman on earth. I thought that once I got married, the porn would go away. I don't need to tell her about anything. It was a phase. I'm going to be out of it; it's going to be great'.
"The first argument about sex: I went out to get some porn.
"I thought it would be my answer, but it turned out to be a secret.
"My wife was basically suspicious over the years, but what had happened was 10 years earlier in 2000.
"I had [gone]to a massage parlour in Vancouver and cheated on her. And I vowed would never tell a soul
"I was so hurt, I couldn't believe I did that. But it fuelled the want for more and when I crossed that line, I vowed no one would ever know.
"She was always suspicious. I would start arguments so she would stop talking because one lie turns into two, turns into 100. Over 10 years, you forget which lie you told and the pornography never stopped.
"It all culminated in February of 2010 - she asked 'What is it I don't know about you, Terry Crews?'.
"It broke me. We were on the phone and I was asking myself, 'Why wouldn't she believe me' when I should have been asking, 'Why am I lying?'"
Rebecca gasped when he told her and said they were "done" and that she was "gone and out" with Terry telling himself he had a "list of excuses" but there was a small voice in his head telling him "maybe it's you Terry"
"I realised, it was me the whole time. I had given Rebecca an image and that is the Terry she was married to. It wasn't the real Terry Crews." he said.
Therapy showed him the way forward.
He explained: "It was no different than any other thing that would numb you, be it drugs, be it alcohol. The 12 steps works for a lot of different addictions."
Crews added that once he and Rebecca rebuilt their marriage "from the ground up," intimacy is all he wished to seek.
"That's all that every man is looking for."
