Shailene Woodley found "cleaning up horse s***" helped her through her break-up with Aaron Rodgers.
The 'Divergent' actress' slipped into depression around the time her relationship with the NFL quarterback ended in 2022 and she will always be grateful to her best friend, stylist Kris Zero, for helping her overcome the "lowest low of [her] life".
Speaking to Outside magazine as their Outsider of the Year, Shailene reflected on the "really awful, traumatic thing" that "happened in early 2022,” which the outlet linked to her split from Aaron.
She said: “I felt like I lost my soul, my self, my happiness, my joy. I really understood depression and anxiety and, like, complete soul detachment.
"I knew I was depressed when I looked at a tree and felt nothing. That was the lowest low of my life."
Kris urged the 'Big Little Lies' star to stay active, even though sometimes Shailene was "so angry at her" for persisting.
She continued: "We’d go surf, and for 10 minutes that day I thought life could be okay again.
"Then the depression would come back and she’d go, ‘We’re volunteering at the horse ranch!’ And we’d find a random f****** horse ranch and we’d clean up horse s***.
"We’d clean hooves and brush the horses, and for 20 minutes that day I thought life could be okay again.
"And then the depression came back, and she’d wake me up the next morning and go, ‘Let’s go on a hike and bring trash bags and clean up trash!’ ”
The 'Ferrari' actress admitted she finds it difficult to talk about her relationship with Aaron because it still makes her emotional.
She said: “I haven’t shared much about my relationship with Aaron because it always makes me cry.
"It was not right. But it was beautiful.”
Shailene previously admitted she found 'Three Women' "hard to film" while going through the low period in her life but she was grateful the series allowed her to process her feelings through her character.
She told Net-a-Porter's PORTER magazine: "It was hard to film because I was going through the darkest, hardest time in my life; it was winter in New York, and my personal life was s***, so it felt like a big pain bubble for eight months.
"I was so grateful that at least I could go to work and cry and process my emotions through my character."
