Throughout the pandemic, all Susan Odgen wanted was to hold the hand of the man she married 51 years ago.
But due to strict Covid restrictions which prevented visiting in care homes, that moment only arrived for Susan when she said her final goodbye to husband Peter.
While she was writing letters to the government asking them to reconsider rules and allow family carers permission to visit their loved ones in a care home.
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Staff at No.10 were hosting a "number of events", which are now being investigated by police as potential breaches of coronavirus laws.
Today Susan, from North Shields, spoke of her disappointment in the government and said it is time for Boris Johnson to resign.
The 74-year-old said: "I was abiding by the rules and unable to see Peter and the outcome of what I went through makes it very hard to defend someone who seems to think it's o ne rule for him and one for everyone else.
"To find out that he seemed to think that things that were happening in his environment could be different, you just can't get your head around that and it's morally indefensible. He ought to go.", she added.
After being separated from Peter since March 2020, Susan was only reunited with her husband for approximately 10 minutes before his death on New Year's Day 2021.
Speaking to ChronicleLive following Peter's death, Susan said she couldn't help but feel as though she had let her husband down by not visiting him during the pandemic.
Although amended Covid restrictions permitted care homes visits for a short time, Susan felt socially distanced visits could have been confusing and distressing for Peter, who was living with advanced dementia.
She explained that the most effective way to communicate with someone living with advanced dementia is through touch, which is why she desperately wanted the government to adjust visiting restrictions in care homes.
But despite her efforts she was unable to convince the government to look at the rules before Peter died of a chest infection aged 72.
Speaking about the claims of Downing Street parties, Susan said: "My brother said to me last week that Boris won't survive this, but I'm not so confident.
"He seems to make the rules and then does what he likes with those rules, so how can we be sure that any inquiry, or anything else, is going to pitch him out? I'm not so confident.
"He keeps trying to defend himself by not answering questions.
"He deflects them by saying 'we just need to focus on what's important', putting himself up as if he's personally saved the country from this pandemic, but he hasn't.
"It has been the scientists and the people with the brains who have been helping this government through the pandemic. He personally hasn't made this happen.
"Yet he seems to think he can keep distracting people by saying how much has been achieved, when all people really want right now is answers to what really happened. We need some honesty and truth."
Susan added: "It annoys me and infuriates me.
"But I don't bay for people's blood and I'm not vindictive and I won't allow myself to be dragged down to that level.
"At 74 I don't want to spend the rest of my life being annoyed about it. The way to make the most in life is to try and do something positive when you're surrounded by negativity."
Boris Johnson remained braced for the publication of senior civil servant Sue Gray’s inquiry into allegations of lockdown-breaching parties in Downing Street, after police launched an investigation into multiple events.
Boris Johnson said he welcomed Scotland Yard’s investigation and hoped officers would "help to draw a line under matters" in relation to multiple events.
Downing Street signalled the Prime Minister is willing to speak to the officers investigating alleged breaches of coronavirus rules over the past two years, but said Mr Johnson believes he has not broken the law.
Pressed on whether the Prime Minister thinks he has not broken the law, a No10 spokesman said: "I need to be cautious about what I say but I think that’s fair to say that he does not."
