The sister of missing teenager Leah Croucher has said her "final goodbye" to their brother who hanged himself a day after being discharged from mental health services.
Haydon Croucher, 24, died as a result of multiple organ failure and never regained consciousness after his mother and sister, Jade, found him hanged at his flat in Milton Keynes, Bucks., on November 14.
The discovery was made the night before the nine month anniversary of the mystery disappearance of teenager Leah.
Haydon's funeral will take place tomorrow and Jade has now shared on Facebook how she spent her final moments with her brother.
Writing on Tuesday she said: "Today has been so hard Haydon, the day I said my final goodbye to you. The last time I saw your beautiful face, the last time I kissed your forehead and the last time I could hold you in my arms.
"I’d love to tell you I was brave but sadly seeing you like this breaks my heart. I am not ready to say goodbye to you Haydon, how could I ever be! You had your whole life ahead of you.
"I am sorry I couldn’t make everything better for you, I wish so deeply that I could. I would give anything to see a smile across your face again, to hear your infectious laugh.
"One thing I know is that if it was love that kept you alive then my little brother you would have lived for eternity!"
Following an inquest into Haydon's death, his mum, Tracey Furness said that her son had been "tortured" by not knowing what had happened to Leah, 19, and the long and fruitless search to find her had taken a toll on his mental health.
The grief-stricken mother said: "His sister was something he, of course, was struggling with, it affected his mental health because of the torture he went through. He wanted answers.
"The day before was the anniversary of Leah being missing for nine months. It was the straw that broke the camel's back."
She added that Haydon had been under treatment for his mental health but had been discharged the day before he took his life.
"They knew it was the nine month anniversary of Leah being missing. From the knowledge I have, he was discharged from their services.
"It will not bring him back but something has to change. He was under mental health services. I was knocking the doors down to get support for my son," said Tracey.
Mourners on Thursday will wear purple or teal – the colours of charity Papyrus who help suicidal young people.
The family have asked people make a donation to the charity instead of flowers.
Remembering her brother, Jade also wrote about the "special memories" she had.
She said: "Those special memories of you will always bring a smile. If only I could have you back for just a little while Then we could sit and talk again, just like we used to do. You always meant so very much and always will do too.
"The fact you’re no longer here will always cause me pain. But you’re forever in my heart, until we meet again."
And she wrote about the "cruel world" adding: "The world feels so cruel! To lose two siblings in 9 months is too much for anyone to bear - and I have lost them in the most awful ways too!
"I pray Leah will come home but sadly my optimism and hope is diminishing. I wish Haydon could come home but that is a wish that can never be fulfilled!
"I cannot any longer put on a brave act, I am broken!"
Despite emotional pleas from the Croucher family, as well as a £5,000 reward offered for any information which could lead to Leah being found, police have not found any trace of her since she disappeared on February 15.
Her parents earlier this year revealed in a heartbreaking interview they believe their daughter has been murdered.
In a tearful interview on This Morning last month, Leah's parents Claire and John said they do not believe she vanished deliberately.
If you need to speak to someone, Samaritans are available 24/7 by calling 116 123 or by emailing jo@samaritans.org
