Jessica Hayes has announced that she has experienced a miscarriage.
The former Love Island winner took to social media over the weekend to share the devastating news next to a photo of her bump.
Starting her post with a trigger warning, the reality TV star wrote on Instagram : "I debated posting it feels really strange to open up and feel vulnerable but you know I’m always open and honest with you all and it’s hard to pretend I’m ok as it’s been a rough week.
"But I hope that someone going through the same this might help. I was pregnant and now I’m not."
She continued to write: "I spoke about my 1st loss and tbh I didn’t know I would be here again earlier this time but it still feels complete shit .
"It’s not really just losing a pregnancy it’s the plans you make , your vision of what that baby or child might of been like , what your family will look like and it gets taken away in a second .
"When your experiencing loss you have to pretend you are ok, wipe your tears and carry on because you have a little one, you cook dinner , you read the stories . You do the school run . Nothing stops."
Mum-of-one Jess then went on to go into more detail about the loss, writing: "It was a traumatic day when it happened which I wasn't really expecting at all i tried to keep busy and go about my day went out which was a big mistake ..rushed home panicked after last time (previous haemorrhage) convinced myself it might be happening again, so I was just happy to get out the other side .
"I saw a heartbeat at the scan we had the next one this week , I planned to tell my family and friends and the children on Easter this weekend in a special way but I started having symptoms and the scan confirmed the baby had no heartbeat anymore."
She added: "You see all these things you plan and get excited about are taken away then you need to workout what this next part of your life looks like after. I guess it’s all you have really thought about and planned for the past months . Of course life goes on but you never really forget . How can you ?"
"Who knows what the future brings.. Although I’m pretty scared and not sure I want to endure going through loss again . It sucks to say the least. But I’m hopeful , I have to be .
"I know I dream of more children one day I love being a mother so much and I hope I’m lucky and blessed enough to be telling a different story next time .
"I feel extremely lucky to have my beautiful son by my side who seems even more of a blessing each day ."
Jess shares three year old son, Presley with fiancé Dan Lawry. The former couple split in 2021, almost a year on from Jess sadly experiencing a late miscarriage at 19 weeks in November 2020.
In November last year, Love Island 2015 winner Jess accepted a marriage proposal from businessman Zeb after a whirlwind one-year romance.
*The Miscarriage Association (01924 200 799) miscarriageassociation.org.uk supports women affected by miscarriage, ectopic and molar pregnancies. If you’re worried about a loved one you can also call the helpline which is manned Monday to Friday, 9am-4pm, or email info@miscarriageassociation.org.uk
