Lauryn Goodman has insisted she has “no regrets” over her affair with married footballer Kyle Walker which resulted in the birth of her two children.
In July, the former flames were embroiled in a highly publicised child maintenance court showdown over 13-month-old daughter Kinara and four year-old son Kairo.
Appearing on ITV’s This Morning on Monday in her first TV interview since then, Goodman admitted that she currently has no relationship with Walker, but wouldn’t wish to change what had happened between them.
She explained: “I can't say I have any regrets because my children are my world. They wouldn't be here, they wouldn't be the way they are...”
Drawn on her relationship with Walker - who has four sons with estranged wife Annie Kilner - Goodman replied: “Currently there is no relationship and everything is dealt with through the lawyers, but yeah.”
She added: “It's really, really difficult because obviously Kairo asks a lot about his dad and he formed that bond with him. So, it's just trying to navigate that I think as best you can, because obviously everyone's situations are different, and everyone has unique circumstances, but as long as I kind of put them first, then I feel as if my consciousness is clear with that.”
She continued: “It’s not where I wanted it to go at all, I thought that maybe we'd be dealing with it in private, but it didn't go that way. In the future, obviously, I hope that we can be amicable for our two children, because obviously they should come first.
“You know, they are beautiful children. It has just been really, really hard to navigate, but I just have to do my best I can for them. I kind of live in this kind of closed off bubble with them. You know, they're kind of my safe space so we just try to not listen to outside noise.”
She will next be seen appearing on reality TV dating show Celebs Go Dating with her first scenes set to air on Wednesday.
Opening up about her decision to go on the E4 show, she said: “I was umming and ahing whether it was the right time to go on Celebs Go Dating. In one sense people were saying "you're not over your ex, Kyle", but in the other sense people were saying "now is as good as time as ever".
“I just wanted to get back out there and start trying to heal from everything and see the process... It was a really intense process so I was really nervous about it.”
Probed further by host Ben Shephard on why she was appearing on a reality TV show after stating she wanted to keep her children from further spotlight, she added: “I think I've always been, ever since I was 23, I've been in the public eye but my kids faces are private on Instagram.
“We live a private life in terms of people don't know what we get up to, but in terms of the spotlight, yes of course, everything's been thrown into the spotlight.”
