Lauren Goodger has bravely recalled her last moments with her daughter Lorena, who tragically passed away earlier this month.
The heartbroken star, 35, lost her "perfect'" baby just moments after she was born in what Lauren described as 'the most traumatic' experience of her life'.
Speaking about her final 24 hours with the tot, she revealed: "I just spent the night looking at her and touching her.
"I held her hands and her little feet. I spoke to her and told her I loved her and all about Larose.
"She just looked so perfect and beautiful and I couldn’t stop taking photos of her. For those 24 hours it was just beautiful to be with her. I didn’t want to let her go," she told OK!.
After Lorena lost her life, the grieving mum-of-one was able to spend 24 hours with her baby in a special room at the hospital, where she admits to crying "the most tears".
The star also revealed she has photos of the newborn on her phone, which she "can't stop looking at".
Lauren is having a post-mortem on Lorena in a bid to find out exactly why she died earlier this month.
The former TOWIE star has explained how doctors battled to save her 9lb baby, but she tragically died just minutes after she was born.
A doctor, who treated Larose for a virus last year, tried to resuscitate Lorena for eight minutes but Lauren was given the agonising news that a heartbeat couldn't be found and there was nothing more that could be done.
She told the doctor she didn't understand after pointing out the baby had a heartbeat of 150 the day before, but Lauren said the medic explained: "I know, but her cord was around her neck…".
Insisting she doesn't blame anyone, the heartbroken star went onto explain Lorena will be taken to a funeral home after the post mortem where she will say her "final goodbyes".
In the meantime, Lauren is taking every day as it comes and shared she has a clipping of Lorena's "beautiful hair" as well as a cast of the tot's hands and feet.
She also has gold locket with a picture of her late daughter inside, which her friends gave her, and will be getting a tattoo of the beloved tot's name.
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