Lauren Goodger has reached out to her fans on social media as she hit a problem on the eve of her daughter Larose's first birthday.
The 35-year-old former TOWIE star is determined to celebrate Larose's birthday in style, just a week after she announced that her second child, Lorena, had died, two days after she was born.
Lauren said that she is now seeing her daughter Larose as a "ray of light" among the waves of grief following Lorena's death.
With Larose having her first birthday, Lauren posted a photo of her daughter sitting in a high chair, dressed in an adorable pink outfit.
She captioned the pic with a plea as she had been let down at the 11th hour for some of the decorations for the big day.
Lauren wrote: "It’s my little cherubs 1st birthday tomorrow. I had balloons ordered but they have had a family emergency so I now can’t get my balloons for the morning… can anyone help me? I know what colour and design thank you xxxx"
With the birthday looming, sources have said that Lauren and boyfriend Charles Drury are "completely devastated" by Lorena's death and that friends and family are supporting the couple.
Speaking to Closer magazine., the source said: "She's going through the biggest trauma of her life and she's completely devastated, grief is a very up and down process - one day she'll be fine, and the next she'll be beside herself.
"Her friends and family are rallying around her and she's lucky to have close inner circle regularly checking in on her. Sometimes she wants to speak, sometimes she doesn't.
"They're managing between the two of them and lavishing love on Larose, she really is the ray of light getting Lauren through all of this. She's pulling her through and staying strong for her."
Lauren is reportedly bowled over by the support she has received since breaking the tragic news on social media and is now hoping she can help others who have been through a similar experience.
She wrote in a statement on Instagram alongside a black and white photo of her newborn's hand holding hers: "Lorena R.I.P 08.07.22 she was the most beautiful healthy baby I’ve ever seen just like her sister @babylarose.x
"… words can’t describe as a mother losing your baby that I carried for all these months perfectly and gave birth too for my angel to be taken from me".
Lauren explained: "There was no pregnancy or labour complications and she was fine & healthy but I am not going into detail right now just know that there was nothing wrong with her or myself she was perfect I can’t understand it she is so so beautiful Larose twin so similar.. I am broken".
She added: "I am back home from hospital Me & Charlie spent as much time with our baby girl Lorena and I haven’t said my goodbye yet.
"I will never ever get over this but I will learn how to live everyday with Lorena in my heart she will be with me always and I will be with her again one day … My Lorena I love you so much".
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