One-time Queen of the Jungle Kerry Katona has revealed she finds it too hard to watch the current series of I'm a Celebrity...Get Me Out of Here!
The mum-of-five, 42, was crowned champion when she took part in the ITV reality TV series in 2004, but the star admits her life 'tumbled down' after beating the likes of Katie Price and Peter Andre to win the show.
Kerry explains how I'm A Celebrity 'brings back some bad feelings' as her life drastically changed following her success in the jungle almost 20 years ago.
The former Atomic Kitten singer has 'shut the door' on that chapter of her life despite her victory ultimately being a 'happy memory'.
Kerry was married to former Westlife singer Brian McFadden when she headed Down Under in January 2004, but the couple called time on their relationship later the same year.
Despite starting the year winning one of the country's most popular reality TV shows, Kerry was left devastated in September 2004 when Brian, who she shares her two eldest children with, admitted he didn't love her anymore.
Following her time in the jungle, Kerry battled mental health issues under the glare of the public spotlight and hit the headlines due to her ill-fated marriage to taxi driver Mark Croft.
"If I’m honest, watching the show brings back some bad feelings for me. I loved doing it and I’m so proud I was the first ever queen of the jungle, but my life went tumbling down after it," Kerry explains in her latest column for OK! magazine.
"I felt like I was no longer in control. The press and my management were in control of everything I did. I was living my life trying to please other people."
She goes on to reveal her life is 'very different' these days so while winning the ITV show is a happy memory for her, it's best to leave it in the past.
The star also cleared up claims she recently 'took a swipe' at I'm a Celebrity host Ant McPartlin when discussing their respective experiences with mental health battles.
Last week, Kerry addressed a 'double standard' in the entertainment industry, claiming that the way she has been treated is different to that of others like Ant.
She looked back on how her mental health struggles have previously been portrayed, claiming she is 'judged massively differently' because she's a woman and because of her upbringing, for example.
Kerry - who has been open about battling drug addiction in the past - told Greatest Hits Radio host Jackie Brambles, 55, that she 'applauds' Ant's recovery from addiction, with her adding that the TV presenter is 'doing amazing'.
However, she mused: "Ant had his own issues, when he crashed his car [in 2018] it was a big, big story yet eight months later he's winning awards and it's all forgotten about".
The star suggested that she hasn't necessarily been able to get rid of her association with substance abuse though, saying one incident is still talked about to this day.
Writing in her latest column, Kerry stresses she wasn't having a dig at Ant when speaking in an interview to promote her new memoir last week.
The star writes how she wants to "make it clear I wasn't slating Ant" but instead wanting to explore how men and women are treated differently in the entertainment industry.
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