Kelsey Parker developed a nervous tic ahead of the anniversary of her husband Tom Parker's death.
The dancer, who shared children Bodhi and Aurelia with her late The Wanted singer husband, recently marked the one year anniversary of Tom's death and she admits it was a very hard day for both her and the whole family.
Kelsey explained how she had developed a tic in March as she prepared for some big milestones such as her birthday, Mother's Day and the anniversary of Tom's passing. The Wanted singer died on 30 March 2023, 2022 after a brave battle with cancer.
Speaking on ITV's Loose Women, she said: "It's been so hard for me in March. I've had so much anxiety that was building up when we hit the first of March. I'm sort of happy now that April is here.
"At the beginning of March, I kept clearing my throat, I was really nervous and struggled with anxiety because I think I knew what was coming. We had my birthday, Mother's Day and then the 30th was a year since we lost Tom."
She added: "I think it's just that it had been a year and I hadn't seen him for a whole year now and where's this year gone. That first six to eight months, I was in complete shock. I was working, I was on the go all the time. I couldn't believe this had happened to us."
The family spent the anniversary at one of Tom's special benches with beautiful viewers over the local area as they all gathered to remember Tom. "We sat up there for hours and just celebrated and laid flowers for him," she shared.
Kelsey also opened up about how tough it had been for her to sort all the admin out following Tom's death.
She explained how she had her phone contract cut off following Tom's passing as he paid for her phone, and she was trying to sort the paperwork out. Kelsey said she kept being asked for the death certificate to prove his passing, and admitted she wanted to bury her head in the sand over her tragic loss but had all the paperwork to sort out.
The dancer previously explained that she questions everything she does in the wake of Tom's passing.
She said previously: "I’ll take all the help I can get in battling through this. Anything that gives me a microsecond of relief from the agonising grief and sense of loss. Not just losing Tom, but losing everything we had built together and believed we were going to share for the rest of our lives. So no, I don’t feel guilt. I question if it’s right for me, my kids, my life.
"I question every single thing I’m doing and I feel guilty for just being here. But to ask if I feel guilty would suggest it’s as simple as meeting someone else and moving on and honestly it couldn’t be any further from that, so guilt is the least of my worries."
