Kelsey Parker is preparing for a "tough" first Christmas without Tom Parker - as she made a heartbreaking admission.
The dancer tragically lost her husband, The Wanted singer Tom, earlier this year after he was diagnosed with a brain tumour. He died when he was just 33 years old, leaving Kelsey and their young children Bodhi, two, and three-year-old Aurelia behind.
Now the mother of two is preparing to spend her first Christmas alone with her kids, as she made a heartbreaking admission about her life and what she struggles to do following her husband's passing.
Speaking ahead of the festive period, she told ITV's Good Morning Britain: "Christmas is going to be so tough for me this year. Last year, Aurelia did understand the Christmas process and this year, she's a year older and it's me that's like - Tom's not going to be here this year. We're not going to wake up Christmas morning together as a family. It's going to be me and the kids."
Kelsey also confessed she struggles to listen to her late husband's music.
"I've definitely avoided The Wanted's music. I just can't listen to Tom's voice, it actually breaks my heart," she explained.
"Music was so relevant in our relationship. We've been together 13 years; music was our life and for me, it's just really hard for me to listen to his voice. Tom's lyrics are so raw; to what he sings now actually reflecting on it."
Kelsey is hopeful there will be a stage where she can listen to his music, too.
"I want to, but the kids want to. They ask, can we listen to daddy's songs? And I'm like, 'go to nanny's house to listen,'" she admitted.
Kelsey previously revealed people cross the street to avoid talking with her following Tom's death.
"In the UK, we don’t talk about grief. We don’t talk about death. It’s a taboo subject," she told Fabulous magazine, "Even when I see people, they don’t really want to talk to me about it. Honestly, people cross the road so they don’t have to talk to me.
"It’s crazy. People don’t know what to say. It’s so shocking because Tom was so young. I think they try to put themselves in my position and think ‘I don’t know how she’s actually coping.' I just want to talk to people and be normal and continue my life."
