Katie Price candidly reveals she was suicidal while battling severe depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
In a new Channel 4 documentary, Katie Price : Trauma And Me, the former glamour model, 44, talks about the "demon in me" and how her mental health struggles led her into a downward spiral that saw her have less access to her children.
The show, set to air on September 8, picks up after the star's horror drink-drive car crash last year, with the opening scenes showing Katie getting ready for court.
Katie, who narrowly avoided jail and was instead handed a 16-week suspended sentence and two year driving ban, says she began to struggle with her mental health in the years prior to the crash.
Speaking of her attempt to take her own life, Katie says: "I hit a severe depression a couple of years ago, depression on top of PTSD. I was suicidal, I didn’t want to be here."
The mother-of-five says it was her love for her children that kept her alive: "All I saw was the kids’ faces and I never want that to happen again."
Katie's step-dad Pete tells the cameras he believes her "downfall" started with her very public divorce from Peter Andre back in 2009, with her mum Amy saying the crash was a desperate "cry for help".
Pete says: "I think her downfall has to start from the divorce with Pete. From that moment, all she got was backlash, backlash, backlash and I find it quite hurtful. I’m not saying she’s an angel, but I think she deserves better. I can understand why she’s got mental health [struggles]. It’s hard."
Elsewhere in the show, Katie says she is 'heartbroken' as her mental health struggles led to a string of bad choices which resulted in her being able to see her two youngest children Jett, nine, and Bunny, eight, less.
"The hardest thing I’ve had to deal with in the recent months is having limited access to some of my kids, recent events have meant I’m seeing my youngest children less and the relationship between me and their father has broken down."
Back in June, Katie avoided a jail sentence after pleading guilty to breaching a five-year restraining order against her ex-husband Kieran's Hayler's fiancé, Michelle Penticost.
Katie says she feels she has been 'stuck in a rut' after seven months of not being able to see Jett and Bunny as often as she wants, but "hopes this won't be forever".
The television personality also expresses regret over the text sent about Michelle, but adds how she difficult she finds it watching her "play happy families" with her children on social media.
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Katie Price: Trauma And Me airs on Thursday 8 September at 9pm on Channel 4.
