Kate Ferdinand has opened up about her miscarriage heartbreak and revealed she knew it was bad news because of the specialist’s "awful" silence during the scan.
The wife of former England and Manchester United star Rio Ferdinand admitted she felt different during the pregnancy but thought it might be because they were having a daughter this time.
However, having already given birth to son Cree in December 2020, Kate expected the worst when she saw the sonographer's face as she scanned her.
Speaking to her own Blended podcast, the 31-year-old said: "It was really hard when you're grieving a loss that no one can see."
She added: "When I think back I did feel sick at the beginning and not as sick after that. I was a little bit anxious. But I'm quite an anxious person anyway. I worry about everything.
"I spoke to Rio about it and we were like, 'Maybe I'm just panicking'. Then we went to our 12-week scan. We went for lunch before and I went to the toilet and there was blood there.
"And I just felt like God was giving me a sign. I came up and went and told Rio and we were both trying to pretend, 'This isn't happening' and 'It'll be fine'."
She continued: "That walk to the hospital felt like the longest walk ever. The minute I looked at the lady, she didn't even have to say anything, I just looked at her face.
"In comparison to when I had Cree, the facial expression was very different - they're happy saying, 'Oh lovely, all's okay'. And then the lady just didn't say anything. It was just awful.
"I just burst into tears, she hadn't even said anything and Rio was like, 'Calm down' and I was like, 'I know, I know, I know' and they said there's no heartbeat."
She continued: "I wasn't prepared. We were going to put the news on social media that day and now there was no news to share."
The TV personality announced the news of the miscarriage in July, posting a photo of her feet propped up on a hospital ward bed.
Kate said she felt the need to speak out as she has received hundreds of messages from fans asking how she was.
She added: "I'm OK and to me it is important for me to share my struggles in the hope it may help one person."
The Miscarriage Association (01924 200 799) miscarriageassociation.org.uk supports women affected by miscarriage, ectopic and molar pregnancies.
If you're worried about a loved one you can also call the helpline which is manned Monday to Friday, 9am-4pm, or email info@miscarriageassociation.org.uk
