Jessie J has reflected on her painful miscarriage one year on in an emotional post
(Picture: AFP via Getty Images)Jessie J has reflected on her miscarriage one year on in an emotional message.
The singer, 34, admitted “it still hurts” as she opened up about her grief over losing her child last year on Instagram on Wednesday.
Jessie wrote in a candid post to followers: “A year ago today I was told my baby no longer had a heartbeat.
“Although I can tell the story now without crying, have and am still discovering all the positives that experience gave me.”
Last November, Jessie publicly revealed that she had suffered a miscarriage after trying for a baby “on her own”.
In her latest post, the singer noted that she’s now looking back on her personal tragedy with “strength, wisdom, empathy and gratitude”.
Jessie continued: “It still hurts and all day I have just been thinking about all the women and men and families who have been through this numerous times and how incredibly strong they are.
“Grief is such a weird and personal journey. Time helps but it never truly fades.
“Sending love and strength to anyone’s heart that has or is experiencing this right now.”
The grieving star ended her message with: “And to my little angel baby. I feel you everywhere. Especially today.”
Earlier this year, Jessie told an audience during a London gig that her “body is changing shape” as a result of her “trying for a baby” again, and reflected on feeling more confident than ever following the experience.
She said: “I have gained weight and I’ve not been to the gym in ages, but honestly, I feel great. I’m not 17 any more and I want to make a baby… I am trying to do that and my body is changing shape.”
The star committed to performing a gig in Los Angeles just one day after receiving the devastating news of her miscarriage last year.
Jessie spoke of the ordeal and her decision to share it online on The Diary of a CEO podcast in May.
She said: “I posted it because I didn’t have anyone to break on… I didn’t have anyone to fall apart on, and that’s what I needed, that’s what I wanted. I was by myself.
“The hardest part for me wasn’t doing the show; the show was actually kind of a weird, trippy dream and I was actually grateful that I wasn’t by myself.
“It was when I got in the car after the show by myself and I got home, and I opened my front door, I closed the door and I fell to my knees.”
Jessie added: “That was the worst moment of my whole experience – realising that, other than my career, being a mother and having a child has been the biggest excitement of my life.
“I felt like I’d been given everything I’d ever wanted and then someone had gone: ‘but you can’t have it.’”
