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Tim Hanlon

'How do I tell my kids I'm dying of cancer?' - single mum shares heartbreaking dilemma

A single mum has told how she is struggling to tell her youngest children she is dying of cancer and feels it is "unfair" on them that she won't be there to look after them.

Louise Hayward, 48, from Whitchurch, Bristol, was diagnosed with bowel cancer in November 2020 - and it quickly spread to her liver and lungs.

And after two gruelling years of chemotherapy she was told last November that doctors had run out of options.

Now with less than a year to live she is frantically raising cash to support her two youngest kids - who will be raised by her sister when she dies.

So far she has not told her two youngest children about the devastating prognosis.

Louise is trying to raise money for her children (Louise Hayward / SWNS)

While she has told William, 19, about her situation, Faith, nine and Louie, seven, know she has cancer but not that it is terminal.

So far Louise has received more than £8,000 in donations for her kids.

She said: "All of this is so scary - I was never expecting to be told I was dying. In November 2022, they told me there is nothing else they can do - I was devastated.

"I begged them to give me more chemotherapy - which they did - but it's hard to accept I am going to die soon. It's so unfair on my kids - they know about my cancer but I haven't been able to tell them I'm dying.

"It's so unfair on them - I just think, why did they have to be born into this life? How do I tell them they're going to lose their mum at such a young age?

"Any money I can save up for them before I pass will make it easier for them when I do."

Louise was diagnosed with stage four bowel cancer after noticing blood when she went to the loo in November 2020.

Louise was diagnosed with bowel cancer (Louise Hayward / SWNS)
In November last year Louise was told the cancer had spread to her liver and lungs (Louise Hayward / SWNS)

She recalled putting off visiting her doctor due to the pandemic - but it became so bad that she had no choice.

She recalled one day having such a severe bleed after going to the toilet that all she could do was "sit on a towel to stop the bleeding".

She said: "I felt like I was giving birth, that's how bad the pain was."

Doctors diagnosed her quickly after finding a seven centimetre tumour in her bowel.

She began chemotherapy and radiotherapy, but after two years, the single stay-at-home mum was told the cancer had spread.

In November, 2022, she was told it had spread to her liver and lungs, and had begun to affect her kidneys too.

She wants to raise as much money to support her youngest children as she can, before she tells them.

Louise said: "I watched Deborah James deteriorate - she was on the same meds that I am on. I watched her deteriorate, and thought soon that's going to be me."

Louise's sister, Rachel, 47, whose children are grown up, will eventually move into Louise's house to parent little Faith and Louie.

She doesn't even plan to have a funeral to limit her children's future pain.

"I don't want to put my children through it twice - you lose somebody, then you live it all over again at the funeral," said Louise.

She fears how they will cope as she has "done everything" for her children as a single parent.

"My little one, Louie, especially relies on me," said Louise. "Faith and Louie know about the cancer, the chemo, and the pain I'm in - but only William knows I am dying.

"These past two years, even with cancer I have continued to look after them on my own. I did the housework, cooked, took them to school, on my own - looking at me even now, you'd never believe I was ill.

"It's so hard to accept that in reality, I am going to die soon."

She added: "It's just so unfair on my kids. I wonder why they had to be born into this life. How can I tell them they're going to lose their mum at such a young age?

"All I can do is try to raise some money for them after I have passed."

People can donate to Louise's fundraiser here.

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