Home and Away star Johnny Ruffo has detailed the devastating toll terminal brain cancer is having on his body.
Johnny, who played Chris Harrington, revealed on Monday his cancer in terminal, after being diagnosed with brain cancer in 2017.
In a new interview on Sunrise on Tuesday, Johnny, 34, said he is losing his memory and struggles with speaking.
"A lot of it you don't remember because you go through such trauma, especially with the brain cancer," he said.
"My memory is nothing to what it used to be, so I forget a lot of things… [Writing] brings up things, whether it be happy or sad memories."
Johnny added he was finding battling cancer "really hard", especially after being given a terminal prognosis.
He said on The Project on Monday: "I felt like I was just kicking goals and I couldn't miss. And then all of a sudden, I just hit a brick wall and everything just came crashing down on me and the whole world came crumbling down.
"But I am so grateful I've had this incredible support network around. Tahnee [Sims, his girlfriend] being one of them. Those people around you are the ones that keep you going.
"At some point it will get me but I'm still fighting. Still kicking on. Looking up my diagnosis and my tumour, the average life expectancy was three years.
"And for me it's now been five years. I'm already winning. My goal now is to try and help as many people as I can and also live a happy life."
Johnny previously underwent surgery in August 2017 to remove a 7cm brain tumour, after initially going to hospital because he had a migraine.
He then underwent chemotherapy and radiotherapy. He then confirmed in 2019 that he was cancer-free.
However, in November 2020 he shared the devastating news with his fans that his cancer had returned.
