Singer and radio presenter Wynne Evans has opened up about his marriage break-up which led to suicidal thoughts before eventually "feeling alive again" following his weight loss and recovery.
Carmarthen-born Wynne, 51, who lives in Cardiff, admitted he even contemplated taking his own life when his marriage came to an end in 2016, with the dark period being "the saddest (he had) ever been in (his) life," and he felt like he had to "wear a mask" in public to make it seem like all was okay.
As well as his mental health struggles, Wynne battled with his weight from a young age, weighing 150 kilos (23.6 stone) at his heaviest - and at one stage, he said he would "have to be careful what chair (he) would sit on, just in case (he) broke the chair", describing it as "embarrassing".
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But the Radio Wales presenter, best known for his role as Gio Campario in the Go Compare ads, is now back on track with his health goals, both mental and physical, having lost five-and-a-half stone since last September. He bought a Peloton bike and a treadmill, and cut out treats and carbs.
And speaking about his mental health struggles, Wynne said he feels "alive again" and wishes to give the message that people should never "feel ashamed of anything".
He said: "Life is about putting in the work yourself. You put in some work on your mental health or your physical health, and then you get a bit of luck - that luck could be an opportunity, like it was with me getting the Go.Compare job, or it could be the spark that makes you lose weight or get healthier.
"When you put the work in, then you're ready to run with it... So, my message is talk to people, get involved, do stuff, and don't feel ashamed about anything - whether you're feeling low, or fat, or thin, or anything. There's no right or wrong, just don't be embarrassed."
Wynne, who got the theatre bug after his mother Elizabeth Evans became involved in amateur dramatics at a local youth club - later going on to save The Lyric Theatre in Carmarthen from demolition, which was made into a film titled 'Save The Cinema' - studied at the Guildhall School of Music and Drama and the National Opera Studio in London, before working at The Royal Opera House (ROH), Opera de Lyon, and the Metropolitan Opera in New York.
While working at the ROH, Wynne said he was asked to go for an audition for a Go.Compare advert - formerly GoCompare - to help a friend, and this catapulted him into the limelight as Gio Compario, 'the Go.Compare man'.
However, despite his rising success and the character's popularity among younger audiences, many "hated" the advert. "There was even a 'I hate Wynne Evans the Go.Compare man' page, which had two million likes."
On top of this, in 2016 Wynne said his "marriage fell apart" and he fell into "the worst depression". With his parents having passed away, the presenter said he had "nobody there"; he felt abandoned, and he started to experience suicidal thoughts.
Since food had always been a source of comfort for Wynne during times of stress or hardship, even as a youngster, "eating became second nature" and he reached his heaviest weight of 150 kilos (23.6 stone) following the split from his now ex-wife. He was broadcasting to the nation while feeling the lowest he'd ever felt.
"I was doing a daily radio show where the feel of it is upbeat and keeping people in a good mood and cheering up the nation," he said. "The strapline of my show is, 'cheering Wales up by one o'clock,' but I was going through the worst depression, clinical depression. I would think about (suicide), I would try and action it... I couldn't see a way out; I couldn't see a way of ever being happy again."
However, one Easter Sunday, Wynne said everything came to a head and he knew he needed help, and he "started to try and put (his) life back together". He continued: "I was feeling suicidal, and it was terrible. I just thought, I'm either going to do something terrible or I need to go and see a proper psychiatrist."
Wynne saw a psychiatrist and was prescribed tablets for his anxiety and depression, and he said he felt "much better, practically instantly".
He feels it is "really important" to speak about mental health because there is no point "pretending everything is okay". Looking back now, he feels "depression and anxiety is (his) superpower", as it has made him "a better singer, better entertainer, and a better person".
"I had bad anxiety and I used to get stage fright, and I think it's made me a much better person actually," Wynne said. "I'm much kinder, much more patient, I try and live every day to the fullest and really enjoy myself. I started to rebuild my life and that's where I am today - I do a show every day, I've got my own TV series in Wales, and it's great. If I could freeze life and keep it going like it is now, I would do that."
While Wynne addressed his mental health struggles, he knew his lifestyle and diet needed to change, too - and so he kickstarted his fitness and weight loss journey in September last year following a camping trip with some friends. Wynne explained that he "couldn't join in" on the hikes, he was "having trouble washing in the shower", and he realised "this has got to stop".
The father-of-two bought a Peloton bike and treadmill and started running every day - an activity which has improved his mental health - and he also adjusted his diet and calorie intake, cutting out cheese, one of his favourite treats, along with carbohydrates.
He said he is "still not tiny", but he has lost 35 kilos (5.5 stone) so far, including 10 inches off his waist, and he feels "great". He wants to continue to work on his health and fitness "to see what happens" and to encourage others to make changes "at the right time for (them)".
Wynne, who was awarded the British Empire Medal (BEM) in the Platinum Jubilee Honours List, also has ambitions to do more TV work, to take his radio show to a larger national audience like Radio 2, and to "try and spread good feeling amongst people"
"I feel amazing; I can dress smarter, I can be smarter," Wynne said. "I mean, if you're happy being a bigger person, that's great, that's fantastic, but for me, it has just made me feel so much better. I feel alive again, and I feel like I can do anything now."
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