Ferne McCann has revealed her motivations for sending cruel voice notes about her then-friend Sam Faiers six years ago.
The former TOWIE star, 32, admits she felt her ex-BFF Sam 'had it all' and seemingly admits to being jealous of the mum-of-three, as she goes into detail about the voice note scandal that rocked Essex last year.
Ferne appeared on This Morning and broke down in tears as she spoke with hosts Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield, where the three stars discussed the voice notes in which Ferne supposedly made a series of comments about her former pals Sam and Billie Shepherd, allegedly calling Sam a "fat c***".
In other alleged voice notes, Ferne appeared to call mum-of-three Sam a narcissistic b***h', whilst in another Ferne was accused of hitting out at Billie for giving her son the same name as her jailed ex Arthur, whilst weeks later the anonymous account claimed Ferne made comments about her ex Arthur's acid attack victim Sophie Hall.
Speaking on the first episode of the latest series of Ferne McCann: First Time Mum, the pregnant star reveals she thinks she knows who is behind the account that leaked the private voice notes online in September and admits she has tried to contact Sam's sister Billie since the leak.
"When I listen back to the voice notes about [Samantha], I am literally.... I am so ashamed and embarrassed and I know the words are really hurtful and it was at a time when I was really hurting," Ferne sobs when recalling the ordeal on the ITV show.
She goes on to add: "Just to explain, they were from FIVE YEARS AGO when me and Sam had fallen out. It's really hard for me to talk about."
Ferne claims the voice notes leaked on Instagram last year were originally sent from her several years ago - with the star also suspecting the audio has been edited to remove context.
As the time Ferne says she made the comments, her then-boyfriend Arthur Collins had just been sent to prison ahead of the former couple welcoming their first child into the world together.
Later in the first episode of First Time Mum, Ferne pays a visit to see one of her former co-stars and reveals why she sent those voice notes all those years ago.
She tearfully tells James Argent : "I think the place that I was at, Sam had it all. She had a partner she had a baby and I didn't.
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"Yeah, I'm not condoning it. I did say something really nasty about her and it has affected my friendships. At the moment, my friendship with Billie... You know how much I... [cries] It's really hard."
When Arg asked if she can fix the situation and if she's contacted Billie, she answered: "Yes and no, I understand the position she's in... I've tried to message her lots but I get it.
"I'm very much mourning the loss of a 22-year friendship. It's hard. I massively regret it but I'm unable to do a lot apart from my trust in the police, try and patch things back together..."
*Ferne McCann: First Time Mum airs on Wednesdays at 9pm on ITVBe and ITVX.
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