Christine McGuinness has opened up ahead of tonight's National Television Awards, saying she's 'anxious' about seeing her ex, Paddy.
The mum-of-three, 34, will be attending the star-studded show in London after splitting up with the Top Gear star this summer.
Filming herself in her car, clutching a cup of coffee, Christine said: "Hey everyone I just thought I'd come on and say hey. It's been a while. I know I've been quiet. I've had loads going on which I know most of you are aware of.
"Loads of you have been checking in on me which I really really appreciate. Thank you so much. I'll be honest...
"I'm not going to lie. I'm not going to come on and say: 'I'm fine. I'm just having a little quiet time'. I'm really not fine.
"There's been far too much on my plate recently, but I'm doing OK. I'm having more good days than bad and I've missed talking of myself on here. I talk to myself every single day but I didn't realise how much I used Instagram as like an outlet."
She added: "Before I used to come on and just chat rubbish every day, and I miss doing that so I'm going to try and be a little bit more active.
"At the moment I'm not feeling completely a 100 per cent myself so I probably will keep having little quiet times, but I am doing Ok."
Christine has been nominated for her documentary: Paddy and Christine McGuinness: Our Family and Autism, in which the family open up about their three children's condition.
The programme was applauded by viewers, with Christine continuing: "On a brighter note, I'm going to the NTAs tomorrow. I'm a nominee for the documentary me and Patrick made with our children and I'm really anxious. I'm quite nervous, just because of everything.
"It's not the best situation, but you know I haven't done anything wrong and I know what a big difference try documentary made and I know how hard the whole team worked on it.
"So I'm going to go and try and hold my head up high and just enjoy the night."
Paddy and Christine split earlier this year after 11 years of marriage, with the pair 'living separate lives' for months.
In a statement confirming the split, the pair wrote: "We hadn't planned on sharing this publicly until we were ready but after the lack of privacy surrounding our life personal life, we feel left with no other option but to clarify.
"A while ago we took the difficult decision to separate but our main focus as always is to continue loving and supporting our children.
"We'll always be a loving family, we still have a great relationship and still live happily in our family home together."
