Britney Spears is telling all.
The “Stronger” singer, 40, took to YouTube Sunday with a 22-minute confession detailing the origin and horrors of her nearly 13-year conservatorship, terminated late last year.
“I get nothing out of sharing all of this. I have offers to do interviews with Oprah (Winfrey) and so many people. Lots and lots of money. But it’s insane. I don’t want any of it. For me it’s beyond a sit-down proper interview,” said Spears in the video that has since been made private. “I had no contact in that place for so long and my heart would just want to stand up in my family’s faces and scream and cry and throw a tantrum and go back in time and do exactly what I wanted to do at those times, yeah, and might even spit in their f--kin’ faces.”
Spears went on to say that she was sharing her story, her way, “because I want people to know I’m only human. I do feel victimized after these experiences, and how can I mend this if I don’t talk about it?”
In the collection of audio clips, Spears notes that when she was 25, she did something that ticked off her father, and as a result he isolated her from her friends.
“None of it made sense to me,” said the pop star. “I literally spoke in a British accent to a doctor to prescribe my medication and three days later, there was a (SWAT) team in my home, three helicopters and I remember my mom’s best friend and my two girlfriends, we had a sleepover the night before. They held me down on a (gurney). And again, none of it made sense. Literally the extent of my madness was playing ... chase with paparazzi. Which is still, to this day, one of the most fun things I ever did about being famous. So I don’t know what was so harmful about that.”
She recalled being so overworked and heavily monitored — including having her weight watched — while her family enjoyed the fruits of her labor, leaving her feeling that she was treated like “a f--king machine.”
“I think the main thing I do remember was my dad’s control. He loved to control everything I did,” said Spears. “I remember the first day, he said, ‘I’m Britney Spears and I’m calling the shots. ... I never remember feeling so demoralized and just, they made me feel like nothing. And I went along with it because I was scared. I was scared and fearful. ... I felt like my family threw me away.”
“If you’re a weird introvert oddball like me, who feels alone a lot of the time, and you needed to hear a story like this today so you don’t feel alone, know this: my life has been far from easy and you’re not alone,” Spears concluded.
Spears in April was reported to be working on a tell-all memoir about her conservatorship.
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