Brian Dowling said that he “just misses his mum” as he remembers Rosie on the day of her anniversary.
His mother passed away from Sudden Adult Death Syndrome at the age of 61 back in 2018.
The Big Brother legend said: “Today February 21st, 2022 marks our mum's fourth Anniversary. She passed away peacefully in her sleep in her own bed from SADS at the age of 61 years old in February of 2018.
“They say time is a great healer but I still feel every emotion from the above message in fact nothing much has changed.
“The only thing is I have learned to live without my mum. I've tricked my mind and heart into believing this is normal. Of course, none of this is normal but I've done this to survive.
“I want to be here, I want to live my life to the best of my ability. So I trick myself daily into feeling I’m ok and most days I am but some days I just miss my mum.”
Brian reflected on his time he spent laughing with his mum, who he considered his best friend.
“I still go to my phone expecting a text or call especially now we are back travelling. When I make a cup of tea I long to be making one for her,” he added.
“I miss her laugh and our daily gossip sessions. Mum loved to laugh and had such a fun personality. She would love all my updates on my work and what Arthur and I would be up to and planning.
But the TV presenter believes that grief fundamentally changes you as a person and that he will experience it for the rest of his life.
He said: “You NEVER EVER stop missing your mum no matter what age you are. My mum was my very first best friend. If I close my eyes now I can actually hear you talking and laughing.
“So much has changed since you have been gone mum and you have missed so much, especially the arrival of our BEAUTIFUL BABY HARVEY. My god, you would be OBSESSED with him and he would definitely knock me from the favourite spot.
“We miss you with all our hearts and will for the rest of our lives and that’s something we are happy to live with. Weirdly the ongoing pangs of grief keep us closer.
"On a bad day, all anyone wants is a hug from their mum. Happy fourth Heavenly Birthday Mum.”
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