Billie Eilish has opened up about the pressures of fame and admitted she 'grieves' the teenage version of herself from before she entered the spotlight.
The 21-year-old singer first gained public attention in 2015 with her debut single Ocean Eyes. She now boasts more than 100 million followers on Instagram and has around 50 million monthly Spotify listeners.
Billie has enjoyed a hugely successful career so far, winning seven Grammy Awards, breaking two Guinness World Records and writing the theme song for James Bond film No Time To Die.
While she now gets to do a career she enjoys, becoming famous means she has had to learn how to deal with 'the weight of millions of people's expectations.
"I was 13 when I put stuff out for the first time. I look back at who I was, when fewer eyes were on me. I grieve that. I strive to be that kid again," Billie said in an interview with Vogue.
The star also reflected on 'hating herself' as she struggled with body confidence issues as a teenager, detailing her anger towards her own body.
The Bad Guy hitmaker described feeling like her body was 'gaslighting' her before she finally learned to love herself.
"Going through my teenage years of hating myself and all that stupid s**t," Billie detailed. "A lot of it came from my anger towards my body.
"How mad I was at how much pain it's caused me, and what I've lost because of things that happened to it. I felt like my body was gaslighting me for years."
Billie's dream of becoming a dancer was cut short at the age of 13 after suffering a growth plate injury in her hip.
Last year, Billie had admitted not being happy with her appearance, as she candidly said: "I see people online, looking like I've never looked."
She told The Guardian: "I know the ins and outs of this industry, and what people actually use in photos, and I actually know what looks real can be fake.
"Yet I still see it and go, 'oh God, that makes me feel really bad'. And I mean, I'm very confident in who I am, and I'm very happy with my life.… I'm obviously not happy with my body but who is?"
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