Azeem Rafiq said he feels "unemployable" in cricket after speaking out about his experiences of racism and bullying during his time at Yorkshire.
The ensuing scandal has had widespread ramifications throughout cricket, with Yorkshire undergoing major changes and the ECB producing a 12-point action plan to tackle racism within the sport.
However, after speaking up, Rafiq believes those within cricket are "scared to be connected to me" and that he does not have "any hope of being around the game in the future".
Speaking at the Include Summit in Birmingham, Rafiq said: "I feel like people are scared to be connected to me, because I will continue to fight for the truth.
"I sit here as a 31-year-old, potentially unemployable, potentially [without] any hope of being around the game in the future, a game that I’ve loved for the majority of my life.
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"Something that I thought, after letting off the burden that I’ve been carrying for a long time, that I’d be able to love again and start going back towards and follow my passion within it.
"If an opportunity of work came, they would have to have me like this. I won’t be prepared to look the other way any longer.
"My passion away from playing is coaching. I’ve completed my Level Four course but didn’t do the assessment because it was around the time of the DCMS hearing.
"So that was one thing that I always wanted to do and the other thing was within a media, broadcasting.
"I just don’t know how I can come back when the game is still not accepting the reality. Of course I’d love to [come back]."
Rafiq also revealed the abuse and death threats that he has received since speaking out have led to other cricketers being "scared" of going public with their experiences.
Following his harrowing testimony to the DCMS select committee in November, Rafiq said a group of 50 cricketers were preparing to speak out but were put off by the abuse he received.
"Even though it's been portrayed as Azeem Rafiq's experience, this is a lot of people's experience," Rafiq added.
"There's a lot of people that have already spoken out and I know in the week after DCMS, there was a group of 50 cricketers that were going to speak out but the attacks that I received scared a lot of people.
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"A few people contacted me while I was shouting and not being heard and it would have been very easy for me to say 'it'll all be fine, speak out' but it's incredibly challenging.
"All I said to the people who've been in touch with me is 'look, these are the challenges, this is what I'm going through. It's a decision for you because ultimately it will feel very lonely, you'll feel incredibly isolated'.
"One thing I did say to them was 'if you do choose to speak out, you'll have one more person with you than I did.' That's all I can do really because I know how lonely it has been for me."