Azaylia Cain's mum Safiyya Vorajee says the days ‘get no easier’ on the 10-month anniversary of her baby daughter’s death.
In April last year, Safiyya and former reality star Ashley Cain sadly announced the tragic death of their eight-month-old daughter, who died following a brave battle with a rare form of leukaemia.
The couple launched a foundation in Azaylia’s honour, and Safiyya has even penned a book, called Loving and Losing You, Azaylia.
In a series of candid posts on her Instagram Stories, the 34-year-old said she was struggling on the anniversary of her daughter’s death.
“Today’s Azyalia’s anniversary, and it’s been 10 months since she passed. And, no day gets any easier,” Safiyya began.
“Every day is just so hard,” she said, becoming visibly emotional and telling her followers she was feeling “choked up”.
“Taking these baby steps each day has really been helping me so much. Today just feels really, really hard. Everything is gripping me and pulling me back so much more. And I’m struggling,” she bravely shared.
Safiyya said she still had a “huge part” of the audiobook version of her upcoming book to record, and said it would be “an intense day”.
“Hard chapters today to read,” she added.
Safiyaa later posted a picture of her holding a microphone in the recording studio, as she told her followers she was holding back the tears.
“The chapters are really intense! Trying to hold back the tears so I can deliver is really difficult,” she wrote atop the snap.
Safiyya said she received messages from fans - and those with sight problems - who requested she read the audiobook version herself, rather than hiring someone else to do it, and she decided to “rise to the challenge”.
Earlier on Thursday, she shared a lengthy post to her Instagram Stories, revealing she had been in bed crying as she tried to face the day.
“For the past 45 minutes I’ve just lay in bed, with tears flowing down my face. I really miss my beautiful little girl so much," she wrote.
“She filled me with so much love, happiness and made me feel complete. I suffer everyday, it never gets easier. Learning to hold it together and build up the layers of strength again is really hard!”
Safiyya said she had undergone counselling to try and help with her severe anxiety and panic attacks, and while she still suffers from them, she’s come to accept her grief is “normal”.
“I still get these panic attacks and waves of grief every day, but now I learn this is my new normal. Grief is love and I will forever love you Azaylia.”
