Amy Winehouse’s parents Mitch and Janis have released never-before-seen pages from her teenage diaries to mark what would have been her 40th birthday.
The singer would have celebrated the milestone age on September 14, but tragically passed away on July 23, 2011, in her Camden flat from alcohol poisoning after binge drinking following a period of abstinence.
Her life was dogged by drug and alcohol abuse and she suffered with a long battle with eating disorder bulimia.
Now, fans have been given a candid insight into what was going through Winehouse’s mind during her formative years, including embracing the fact that she was “different” from other people and worrying if she would never find love.
In excerpts released by The Telegraph, from the upcoming book Amy Winehouse – In Her Words, which will be released on August 31 via Harper Collins, the Rehab hit-maker wrote: “I’m pleased that I’m different. It’s not like I want to be like everyone else. I love having my own individual style. I love being loud and mouthing off to people. It’s the way I am.”
Winehouse also pondered in her writing about whether love would elude her in life and what kind of match she might like.
She mused: “Sometimes I think, I wonder if there’s someone, some guy out there who’s as crazy as me? A nice guy with dark hair, who wears glasses to read and is a real Indie kid? Piercings optional, Scottish or Irish accent preferably!
“And why do all my brother’s friends fit this description, yet I’m much too young to do anything about it?
She added: “Is love ever going to cross my path or am I destined to go out with metalheads or gorgeous guys with NO BRAIN.(One thing I despise).”
Elsewhere, she lamented having a short fuse, admitting that she sometimes got “physically violent with those I love” as a result.
The estate of Amy Winehouse will donate 100 percent of the advance and royalties it receives from the production and sale of the book to registered charity, The Amy Winehouse Foundation.
The minimum donation will be £70,000 and will assist the charity in continuing their vital work helping thousands of young people to feel supported in managing their emotional wellbeing and making informed life choices.
A biopic about Winehouse’s life is also currently in the works, titled Back To Black and starring actress Marisa Abela as the troubled star.
